Two steps forward, one step back. Isn’t that how the saying goes? No matter how hard we try, we make progress, but will slip back a bit. Then, the next time we start forward, we need to make up that lost ground.
What if we went back on purpose?
Can you really go back? Probably not actually, but symbolically, hmmm…maybe.
OK, time to fess up. I started this entry a few months ago… June to be exact, at a time when I was physically taking a trip back to a place where I had started one life journey over 20 years ago… this time, starting a new journey. I never finished the story, so on my desktop it sat these two-plus months. Now, having gone on another journey last week, I find myself moving forward again… though I don’t know if I’m going back in order to do it this time. Who knows? Time and space are all relative anyway, right?
So on to my journey. Starting a new life. This year has been a whirlwind of endings and new beginnings… on so many different levels. (and if you’re reading this now with a huge grin on your face, then you know parts of me and my journey all too well and you just need to stop that NOW!)
I love new beginnings, I just don’t always love the endings that often precede. I like new and shiny things… but there is something to be said for the familiar and comfortable. So which is it? Both I guess. Sometimes you have to look forward knowing that you will never regret anything along the way. Take love for example. Honestly, not a very familiar feeling for me, but it is what it is. Loving, or at least falling in love, is risky. OK, fine, it’s terrifying! But do I not take that risk because of the risk of pain and heartbreak? Not a chance. Bring it on, baby! I’ve learned that the “feeling” is what it’s all about. Give that up?? Ha! I’ll take it. Even the heartbreak. The way I see it, if the heartbreak is that devastating, the love leading up to it must have been ten times as powerful. We need to look back and feel that love in order to work through the pain and move forward to more new things.
So, going back to move forward. Yup, that’s it, on so many levels.